I’m no superman No, not the Man of Steel I bleed and hurt of flesh and blood But i care just the same i wish you were here with me tonight YAO FEI LUO seventeen Phoenix Hypernova Zenith Innova sky_scorpion5@hotmail.com where voices speak EXIT HERE april becky brenda hengguang jermaine lelia merlin samantha sophia wanling weizhou ARCHIVE CREDITS Codes: -RAJAHchindian | Inspiration: kissandtell | Background: Kollermedia | Image Host: Photobucket |
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
was glancing through some of the old posts that i had read before. ran through every thought and emotion that i had experienced in that period. and as things began to turn sour i stopped. could not go on. just could not. and so decided to let this be the past. maybe then things will be easier. but before goodbye, here's a tribute to all it was and more. A TRIBUTE, AN ODE, A FAREWELL ____________________________ it was random occurence like genetic arrangement started out testing the water never intending to go deep but just as a whirlpool does was drawn in inevitably __________________________ always the one with initiative always the one starting always the one in the morning always the one in the evening __________________________ preoccupied the thoughts preoccupied the mind preoccupied meaning preoccupied everything else __________________________ wondered how long it could go on wondered if it was too good to be true wondered if i was dreaming wondered if this was just a phase __________________________ was starting think nothing nothing at all could go wrong maybe this was it the one chance i had always wanted __________________________ then it happened the first time just as i was losing balance and for once it was not my fault __________________________ things were never the same never the same ease never the same comfort never the same again __________________________ but there were whispers there were gentle reminders moments of what had been what could have been __________________________ it dragged on and on even then i was content maybe if it stayed i could live with that _________________________ but no, it wasn't to be the bombshell came that night wasn't meant to but it did ________________________ was ready to give up prepared to let go expecting to never again resigned to what was _________________________ it did not happen was not allowed to was given a brief respite was allowed to smile __________________________ thinking that maybe this could work hoping it would work wanting to make it work and most of all to last __________________________ it seemed like it would in its own way in its own capacity reaching to limits never before __________________________ it did, it did but not for long all it was all it could be was two, two short __________________________ and i was soothed at the end at the very end like compensation before retrenchment __________________________ but compensation or no this would be the ultimate the turning point no leeway for returning __________________________ at the end of it all when the chapter is closed you were still perfect not a speck, not a spot absolutely flawless and the best i could have known yeah thats it. this should have been done weeks ago. many many weeks ago. or maybe even months ago. maybe then things could have looked up alot faster. but they say never late than never. and i guess if it was then i wouldn't have been ready. now i am. things could have been different. who knows? (: whatever it is, what ever happens from here on, i just like to say that you will always be my b.. if im still considered one. maybe in the future there may be a chance for a second chapter. (: i'll make every second count; 5:50 PM |
