there is a old adage that goes like this : be careful what you wish for, because it might just come true. just not exactly how you pictured it.
life works in funny ways. twice now it has given me what i had asked for. and both times things didnt turn out how i pictured it. i guess i can't complain can i? afterall, i was the one who asked for a low enough score to go somewhere. only problem was, by the time i was given that score, my heart was somewhere else. and then i was the very person who asked to be able to move on. and true enough, i once again was given the opportunity to. i didnt have to worry about wasting more time. i didnt have to worry about waiting for the mercy of others. but then once again, i am not happy. not satisfied. why? because how can i be happy moving on if its not together? how can i be satisfied i its just me?
for what its worth, i am still hoping and praying this doesnt turn out a reality. only then can i contently look to the future.
(: dedication.