there is a old adage that goes like this : be careful what you wish for, because it might just come true. just not exactly how you pictured it.
life works in funny ways. twice now it has given me what i had asked for. and both times things didnt turn out how i pictured it. i guess i can't complain can i? afterall, i was the one who asked for a low enough score to go somewhere. only problem was, by the time i was given that score, my heart was somewhere else. and then i was the very person who asked to be able to move on. and true enough, i once again was given the opportunity to. i didnt have to worry about wasting more time. i didnt have to worry about waiting for the mercy of others. but then once again, i am not happy. not satisfied. why? because how can i be happy moving on if its not together? how can i be satisfied i its just me?
for what its worth, i am still hoping and praying this doesnt turn out a reality. only then can i contently look to the future.
(: dedication.

safe away from prying eyes.
locked beneath the radar.

in the past seeing was believing. but in this modern society, even seeing is only half of what the truth actually is. at times even less. heard this on one episode of justice league, " believe half of what you see and none of what you hear" well, thats hits the nail on its head. not much in this world is what it seems to be. the problem comes when others think that they know the whole truth when in effect they know none. then they open their big gap and stuff becomes even more distorted and slowly it becomes so exaggerated it doesnt even sound plausible.

a wise old friend summed it up best : " as time passes the truth becomes coated with lies"

and sady, till one day the truth can no longer be found.

:D:D

all but one left. seems to fast to realise. seems to quick to take notice off. yet the impact last a thousand years. the ripples spread a thousand miles.

sometimes when you are too caught up with something you fail to realise that what ever you are putting in effort for is but a pure waste of time. a waste of your resources. and a waste of feelings. because in the end you only end up hurt. guess it was wrong to think that it mattered. it was wrong to assume that you were a part of it. because in fact it was none of your concern. well thats the past anyway.

over and done with. have a good life. hope you would really. because there is no more safety net.. no more chance to mess up and start over. this is where we grow up.

just some crap ramblings. (: