you are so close yet your hearts are miles apart. you want to reach out and grab her hand. you want to look deep into her eyes, into the very recesses of her soul and tell her how much you love her. but there seems to be this invisible wall that prevents you from crossing the line. you hear her voice on the phone and hear her woes and sorrows. and deep down you want to hold her in your arms and tell her that everything will be alright that you will protect and keep her from any tears. you love her. she knows you love her. but it is just not to be. you want to make her yours but she was never yours to take. and the feeling of fustration of misery of unhappiness wells up inside. so strong that you want to scream your lungs out. so strong that it tears at you inside, pounding and pounding till you are brought to your knees. you look up in despair at the sky and all you see is darkness. not even a glimmer of light breaking through. and the first of the drops of tears that you have been fighting to keep back slowly trickles down your cheek.

a dedication to someone.